Today marks two months of unemployment and this week is almost one month in this apartment, and I have to say, things are going good. I never in a million years thought I would enjoy being home all day, but I do. Trust me I am still adjusting, but honestly my patience with my children has gotten a lot better.
I don't know what it is or why it happened but it did. I notice on the one day both kids are at daycare and they come home, I have a hard time with patience with them but every other day, it's not like that. Is it because we are always in a rush and I only see them for two short hours, I don't know, but there is a difference.
Hanging out with Mary, is a blast. Of course, there are days we are staring at each other with nothing to do and those days are long, but they don't happen all the time. I really know and understand her personality and in one short word, its Diva, but a comedic one at that. She is always making me laugh or doing something crazy.
I'm looking forward in a month to Henry joining us in our crazy days. I want to get to know him more too. I'm not saying, I don't know my children but I feel like I know them in a different way, now that I am home. I take my time, I'm not in a rush, I sit down and let the sink fill up and laundry pile up, I don't feel that it HAS to be done, like I did when I was working and I enjoy my time with them.
You would think I would have taken more time when I was working, but I had less time to do that and I always felt that everything had to be done. I didn't want to spend my weekends in a laundry room or cleaning, I wanted them with my family. Now, that, I'm not in a rush, Monday is like Saturday (well except without Charlie) and things can get done then.
Yes, I am still looking for a job and I have had some leads but nothing yet. The job is going to have to be the perfect situation and something I am going to love doing because right now it's not going to be easy for me to leave, but I have to realize that most likely it's going to happen.
I hope this post doesn't come across in a bad way, it's just the way my life has changed. I believe that things happen for a reason and I think someone was telling me, to slow down, and appreciate what you have been given.
Back to the dishes, the laundry and a little snuggling with Mary.